Anyone who knows me, knows that I am quite ignorant with most major problems. I procrastinate sometimes and avoid the solutions to some of life's big problems... If they are so big that I think I may have trouble dealing with them, well I guess I have a tendency to just avoid them. Alcoholics dip their tongues in the saucy poisons that will intoxicate them to the point that the problems temporarily melt away... Me, well I guess I've developed a mechanism of ignorance... I'm ok with this except that I have some pretty big stuff on my plate that I know I should deal with but keep putting it off...
Recently a good dose of reality set in as I found myself woken by the kids again. A regular clockwork behavior shortly after they arrive home from school. It's almost as if they sub consciously know they can stir dad a little with the banging and noises and the end result is time spent with dad even if he is angry about being woken up. I don't think they can truly comprehend yet what it is to work 10 hours at night each night and then only get a few hours sleep during the day... The beast we call night shift is irregular at best and mentally it takes a lot out of a person. So as the story goes, I found myself awaken by some yelling. "There's water in the bathroom again!!!" my children scurrying about finding all the towels they can to soak it up... Me, already being in the basement where I sleep I ran to the bathroom and sure enough I found my bare feet greeted by the ice cold melody of toilet water. It's just water though, and although by this time I could see the HUGE paint bubble above my head full of water from the bathroom on the level above. I wasn't at all concerned with the impending drywall repair, No, I was more concerned with the sizzling and crackling sound coming from the 100amp electrical panel that was mounted on the wall in front of me only a few feet from my face... As fast as my feet could take me I removed myself from the puddle of water on the floor knowing that it would only take a fraction of a second for the electricity to kill me if it made the right contact, the correct path through my body would prove fatal. I then ran as fast as I could wearing only my underwear to get the kids out of the bathroom where they were trying to soak up the water. Equally dangerous however not as obvious to them as it is to me someone who has a fair amount of electrical knowledge...
The bottom line in this is that after cleaning up the electrical panel and shutting off the water supply to the bathroom etc I began to realize that procrastination can be far more serious in some situations and does not simply go away. The problem much like alcoholism only compounds. The bathroom had flooded before only the first time it was far more serious because we had called the fire department and had our electrical meter removed etc. Inspectors had to be called in to declare the panel safe again after I cleaned it...
It is 3:02am and I am sitting here writing in my blog instead of sleeping. That clearly tells me that my mind is troubled... My wife and I are waiting for news from the bank, news we were suppose to receive on Thursday or Friday of last week but got delayed due to some paper work error. And financially we are at our wits end... Exploring all kinds of possibilities, one of which may end up being the sale of our house with us moving out of the city causing major commute times to work for the both of us... I am hopeful that our situation improves, I am expecting another increase in pay at work but of course when you are expecting something it seems to take longer... I feel I am doing well in my job but it is quite obvious that I am under paid even at the admission of my superiors. They can replace me in an instant, the job does not take a rocket scientist but you would think that when you have someone who does the job efficiently and with few mistakes that they would take more measures to make sure the employee who is already well trained stays with the company instead of tickling the idea of handing out more resumes...
That's all for now, I have far more to rant about but I will wait until the news from the bank to produce more...
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