Things to come...

I hope it was an indication of things to come, we spoke with someone who works "In the loop" so to speak. Can't mention her name cause she will be in trouble but she has become a good friend of ours over the past 6 months, she sees all and knows all in the transplant world and she has informed us without details that there were 9 successful transplants in the month of December.

Today of course, after a long two week break we returned to the treadmill room. Found many of our friends still breathing heavy but moving forward in good spirits. And there were a few miracles, people who had previously been strapped with all the none sense involved with being sick with respiratory hellishness. Tubeless and scarred they now walk through the tread mill room with their heads held high.

When oh when will we get the call?

Now I guess that we have made progress ourselves though, gotten the infection under control and they will make my mom a higher priority I guess. I have to trust that our good coordinator will make the right decisions and proceed with efforts for my mom's survival through more of their superior care. But yet I am still somewhat frustrated... Extremely happy for the people who we have befriended but frustrated that it was not yet our turn...

I am, effectively... Financially strapped... Very little work is accomplished in between and my search for new work during the hours that I am available has been intense...

Enough of that for now,

I must not mention anyone's name here with my next frustration because this particular person is not well and I certainly don't want to contribute to their delusions. I've worked with him at more than one job location, witnessed more than one delusional event myself in fact. Pondered why he's heating his trailer with a hair dryer etc... Enjoyed the joys of being left without a work partner while he was fixated on his drug fixes... And I've even had to work a double shift because he didin't show up for work a few times... but hey... he's a friend, and someone who oddly enough I have things in common with!

I don't expect you to get it, it's a bit of a mess. None the less I am a bit frustrated that he left his comfortable and "safe" place. Suddenly he gets a bit of money in his pocket and then poof he moves to a place still over a day away from me. ARGHHHHHH

Well enough of that, this blog is more of a frustration release for me and when he reads this he will understand it but as I said before, with his paranoia I don't want to freak him out... I just wish he would have communicated with me a bit more about this because now I'm worried he may not be prepared for the cross Canada trek... I know for me at least it was very expensive to move my entire family, for one person and a few duffle bags perhaps it will be less...

Confuzzled yet?